I have been giving these words careful consideration and I believe I have greatly improved in this area compared to when I did this 5 years ago. I don't think I am worried or have worried about anything for a long time. I'd like to say I have been uneasy but that might be underestimating it just a bit.
Here at the Onething Prayer Center we seem to have been in perpetual change for several months. For a long time I just wanted to know where it would all end. I spent many hours trying to figure out every possible configuration of the campus. Where people could meet, who would be here, how long they would stay and how much they would be able to pay.
What's the difference between being worried, anxious or uneasy?
Worry - to torment oneself with or suffer from disturbing thoughts; fret.
Anxious - full of mental distress or uneasiness because of fear of danger or misfortune; greatly worried; solicitous: Ed was anxious about the Onething Prayer Center.
Uneasy - uncomfortable; restless
Sounds like a progression. Uneasy, anxious, worry.
I wouldn't say that I was tormented yet I can't say I was just restless, so I guess anxious, full of mental distress seems to be the correct answer.
If it is progressive then I just lost the comfort I was feeling because I didn't fall into the worry category. Because if it's progressive I just hadn't reached that level yet.
Ed you seem a little uneasy... I can live with that. Ed you seem worried. NOT! I don't like that. It doesn't sound very spiritual to be a worrier. Uneasy sounds like a concerned, wise, mature adult. So I'm a little delusional... give me a break!
Okay what's next? Matthew 6:25 Therefore I tell you Ed, stop being perpetually uneasy, anxious, and worried about your life. Life......
Application - We're on the same application as Monday for the entire week. Several have figured out what the next level of the application is and have been rewarded accordingly. How many of you have worried about doing this application?
Please be aware that some people are journaling through this blog and others have created their own blog to journal in.
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ReplyDeleteThis is one response I have gotten to the Plant exercise. This is not an easy task for everyone as you will read.
ReplyDeleteWe are on day 3 and I haven't touched the plant. I'm being honest with you it hasn't left the bathroom. I am overwhelmed and I rarely get overwhelmed. I have a God given drive for the first time regarding the fast. However the same is not for the plant and both of these you have suggested. I don't know what to make of that. I knew I shouldn't have commited because I knew I wasn't lead yet I'm trying out of obedience but failing. When I state that I am busy and overwhelmed, unlike most people I truly mean it because I am a pretty active guy and don't fail easy. This plant is currently causing me discouragement due to the simple fact I have not the foggiest clarification on its importance. I see the importance in the blog but the plant does not correlate to me. I don't draw the line between the two and am praying God shows me different. I'm not sure what to do as I don't want to disappoint and I don't want to fail yet I almost knew this was going to be the case.